Got the Update- but not what I thought

So, I finally heard back from my social worker only to learn that I was wwwaaayyyy off on my list. I was told today that there are a total of 13 families still ahead of me with overlapping requests. Geesh- I didn't see that coming??? I think I need to stop trying to pinpoint how many weeks/ months I have left to wait as it is completely impossible to figure out. I gave myself a goal (or a mission) and that is that I am going to try and enjoy the process- not rush through it. The right child will come into my life at the right time. And, until then I am going to enjoy my wonderful three kiddos like there is no tomorrow and be thankful for each day God gives me.
Eventually the call will come. Eventually I will see my sweet boys face. And, Eventually I will hold him in my arms.

I know this poem has gone around in blog land before, but I love it so I am posting it again because it is my blog and it makes me feel better!!! he he

KISSES IN THE WIND

I hold you in my heart and touch you in my dreams.
You are here each day with me, at least that's how it seems.

I know you wonder where we are... what's taking us so long.
But remember child, I love you so and God will keep you strong.

Now go outside and feel the breeze and let it touch your skin...
Because tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God hold you in His hand until I can be with you.
I promise you, my darling, I'm doing all that I can do.

Very soon, you'll have a family for real, not just pretend.
But for tonight, just as always, I blow you kisses in the wind.

May God wrap you in His arms and hold you very tight.
And let the angels bring the kisses that I send to you each night.

--- Unknown