ME!!!

Okay... so I talk a lot about the kids adjustment in the past few months. But, just recently I have been realizing how hard the adjustment has also been on myself. For the past 158 1/2 days (yes I counted) everything in my life has been about Sweet M* or Sweet M*'s adjustment into our family. If it wasn't about him than it was caring for our other 3 kiddos or working. There was just no way around it. There was so much that I prepared for before we came home, but also so much that I had to just learn as we went. My husband helped me realize last week just how drained I was both physically and mentally (yes he is awesome). I didn't believe him but then he told me to go off and spend some me time and I could not think of a single fun thing to do. How sad is that? I couldn't think of a tv show to watch, I didn't want to go shopping, nothing seemed interesting online... blech...

Then I realized that it was bc I have not had that opportunity (or I haven't allowed myself the opportunity) to escape and go have fun since the day we stepped on the airplane headed to Ethiopia. So, I am taking at least an hour everyday to re-charge my batteries now and I am already feeling a million times better. I am so thankful that I was strong enough to make it through the initial months and I am so so so very thankful that our family is starting to get back to a "normal" routine. I even have all of the kids in their own room sleeping, well... at least that is where they start. Most of them make into our room at some point during the night. But, hey baby steps in the right direction are fine by me ;)